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Bucky lives at #100 David Cliff Apartments, though he does not often sleep there. Any message left for him there will, however, be received.

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TW: suicidal thoughts

[morethan084]

[Daisy shakes her head. Not because she’s disagreeing that she’s stupid, but because he has no idea of all of the things she’s done back home.]


I’ve hurt people, Bucky.

[Daisy makes eye contact with him, knowing just how much he can relate to her experiences. She’s not sure how quickly she would’ve told him even this much if he still remembered her from before. She wasn’t the same person she used to be here. She wasn’t Skye.]

I can’t—-

I don’t think I can live with it.

TW: suicidal thoughts

[advanced]

[He knows what it's like to have hurt people, and to wonder if you ever deserved to have a life after taking so many others away. He doesn't know her exact story, and nor does he want to press and ask her about it now. She's clearly only being so voluble because she's drunk, and he doubts she'd thank him for pushing the issue and learning more after she sobered up.]

That's why you have to.

[His words are quiet now, and it's obvious he's talking about himself as well as her.]

You can't make amends if you're dead, can't pay back the debt owed.

[morethan084]

[He's right, but she can't make herself see that. Not now.]

And what happens when I can't even save them?

[Like before.]

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Then you make amends in different ways.

[He can't save the falling people, he found out the hard way just what a bad mixture a metal arm and someone falling at terminal velocity was, so he's trying to do other things.]

Nobody can save everybody.

[morethan084]

[Biting the inside of her cheek, Daisy is silent for a long minute before taking a sip of her water.]

M’just a screw up.

[Daisy mutters to herself as she leans her head back on the chair.]

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Maybe.

[He doesn't know her well enough to refute that claim, but nor is he going to condone it.]

But so is everyone, sometimes. You're not gonna be less of a screw up by drinking yourself into this kind of state.

CW: alcohol abuse mention

[morethan084]

[Closing her eyes, both in an attempt to keep from crying and because the room is spinning, Daisy does frown when he doesn’t disagree with her being a screw up. It’s good though, he’s being honest with her.

Even if it just makes her want to cry.]

S’not like I do this everyday. Sometimes I wish I could.

CW: alcohol abuse mention

[advanced]

[He's really messing this up, isn't he? He can tell from the way her expression falls further, that he's sinking her deeper into drunken depression rather than alleviating it. The problem is that he doesn't know her well enough to know what would help, and he's hardly good at this sort of situation in the first place.]

But you don't, because you are needed doing things that aren't drinking. Even if you save one, and let five fall, that's one person breathing because of you. Seems to me that's worth it.

[morethan084]

[Opening her eyes after a moment, Daisy tilts her head down just enough to be able to look at him. He's right, she knows he's right.

Of course, she still feels horribly guilty for what happened today and she very much wishes this water was vodka instead.

Even if the room is spinning and she should've probably cut herself over an hour ago.]

Thanks, Bucky.

[Letting out a sharp exhale, Daisy looks over towards her fridge.]

You still want that pizza?

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[He shakes his head, relieved that he seems to have finally said the right thing.]

I think you oughta be in bed.

[He nods towards the glass in her hand.]

Finish that, then I'll go.

[morethan084]

[Daisy doesn't want him to go, and she almost says it, but thank God she didn't. It would've just been one more awkward thing she'd have to deal with tomorrow.]

I could go for some pizza.

[Daisy mutters, loud enough for Bucky to probably hear.

Yes that was a hint. Since, you know, he wanted her to sit.]

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It'll probably just make you sick.

[Grease and alcohol, as far as he's aware, isn't the best combination.]

Water, then sleep.

[morethan084]

[Daisy rolls her eyes, throwing her head back dramatically.]

You bring up pizza, then deny me pizza. You’re mean.

[Yeah, she doesn’t remember being the one to bring it up in the first place.]

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[He folds his arms, unimpressed.]

Sure, if that makes you feel better, I'm denying you pizza. Drink your damn water.

[morethan084]

[Daisy sips at her water, watching him.]

Y’going to just stand there?

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Until you've finished your water and you can head to bed, yeah.

[He's not about to leave her to her melancholy, but what else is he supposed to be doing?]

[morethan084]

There’s other seats.

[Daisy hints, closing her eyes again for a minute as the room spinning is making her feel sick.]

[advanced]

[There's the tiniest of sighs, but then there's also the quiet sound of a chair being pulled out.]

You need a bucket?

[Because she looks a little green around the gills.]

CW: vomit

[morethan084]

[Daisy licks her lips before shaking her head.]

No. M’good.

[She opens her eyes to look at him, and quickly changes her mind when the room tilts sickeningly.]

N’second thought. Yeah.

[Daisy quickly gets to her feet, or as quickly as she can and makes a beeline for the sink. Dropping the glass of water along the way.]

CW: vomit

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[Luckily, of all the disgusting things he's seen, vomit doesn't even rank up there among the top twenty, so he's not particularly phased when she dashes for the sink. It's annoying because it means she'll have undone whatever good getting the water into her would have done, but at least it'll purge some of the alcohol from her system.

He doesn't follow, letting her get it all up in the sink. Instead, he bends to pick up the pieces of the fallen glass, wiping away the water.]

[morethan084]

[So maybe it was a good call on his part to not give her the pizza. She’s not even thinking about the mess she made with the glass until she’s done puking, for now and turns around to see Bucky cleaning it up.]

Sorry.

[Not just about the glass, about him being dragged into this whole mess too. Leaning heavily against the sink, Daisy slides down to sit on the ground.]

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Forget it.

[He half shrugs as he finishes sweeping up the last of the glass and putting it into the trash. He can't lie and say this is what he wanted to do with his night, not when he's already on edge from everything that's happened, but it's not her fault.]

You can make it up to me by going to bed.

[morethan084]

[Wiping at her nose with the back of her hand, she lets it fall limply to the floor.]

M’just going to sleep here. S’good enough.

[And getting up is way too much effort right now.]

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[He considers letting her.

It's not like a night on the floor will do her any real harm, and he's slept a lot worse places. But she has a bed, and she's going to feel rough enough tomorrow with a hangover without adding stiff joints into the mix.

He hesitates, before stepping in close and just bending to try and scoop her up.]

[morethan084]

No, you don’t have to—-

[But he’s already scooping her up into his arms and in all honesty? She’s not about to fight him over it.

Instinctively she leans her head in his shoulder, because the last time he carried her—

Things were just different.]