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This is the IC inbox for Bucky Barnes at Snowblind.

Network name: @bucky; formerly @j, @username, and @robertsmith

This is the place to contact Bucky over the Network. Contact by voice, text, or video is all perfectly acceptable, and there is no need to plot with me prior to posting in this inbox.

Any contact for @j following day 125, @username following day 190, or @robertsmith following day 224 will be met with the following message: USER NOT FOUND.

Comments

[mrcreamsicles]

[He's dealt with assholes before, people who've done both worse and lesser hurts against him and the people he cares about and never said a single word of apology for it. People like Sherlock who act like manners are for other people, people like John who passive aggressively resented him for being the wrong Dave after he saved his life, and Jack Noir who killed everyone on his team at least once and three of their guardians without any concept of regret to his mind. He has this mess with Brian here, a guy who seemed to think him hurting Jade's feelings was ground for a creepy, near threatening message.]

[Bucky, by contrast, is a relief. He wouldn't say he likes him and he'd rather not be around him in person again until the guy learns how to chill, but the thing is Bucky knows what he is. Not everyone can come back from mistakes as big as he's made, accept and put them out there when called on it, when others have lied to cover him. Who the fuck carries around someone they've gravely injured on purpose to try and make up for it? It's huge. It tells him Bucky's trying, trying at something very hard, and he doesn't see any reason to be a dick about it.]

[He's not going to get rid of Davesprite easily.]

do you mean it

[It's why he says that, too.]

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[Well, clearly that didn't work.

He's not going to keep typing, he's noticed the mistakes he's made already and it bothers him, it's a display of his weaknesses in black and white. So he flicks to audio instead, voice low and carefully neutral.]

Why are you pushing this so hard?

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[mrcreamsicles]

[Davesprite follows over, no fuss to it.]

Because, dude. I mean it and I'm not taking it back. You think I'd be throwing it out for no good reason when I'm the guy who told everyone what you did?

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Maybe, if you've been listening to the others.

[Which might actually make more sense, a thread of suspicion entering his voice.]

How much have they told you about me?

[mrcreamsicles]

[He pauses, thinking back a little.]

Honestly? Not much. They told me you didn't actually want to hurt people, but that was back before I outed you on the network. Either Clint or Nat was the one that let your name slip when I drew you to try to tell them what happened back then, and they said they were coming to get you, but obviously that didn't stop me. Watson lied to cover what you did before that thing with Charles, then later during that network fiasco he told me how you went and attacked him because of those movies from his world—which is super fucked up, by the way. Clint did tell me you'd been carrying Watson around after that, and the way his death went down, but that's not much after everything else. So if it was just what they said, I'd say fuck you and have done with it.

But you're the one who told me your deal after I was being a dick about it, who owned up to how dangerous you are and how bad you fucked up. You admitted what happened straight up to Charles. You even tried to apologize to me for everything. That takes balls, Jay.

So now you were trying to help Watson, going way above and beyond the call of duty, and he ends up dead. It sucks to have anyone die on you, but under those circumstances? Jesus. You get the sympathy because you deserve it. Just accept it.

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[His only response for a moment or two is a shuddering and quiet exhale. He's only just holding it all together, and he really doesn't want to lose it down the line to a weird teenager who he barely knows.]

It doesn't matter.

[His voice is low and level, deliberately forcing calm.]

He was dead the moment I hamstrung him, he just took a while to die. It probably would have been kinder if I killed him outright to start with.

[mrcreamsicles]

[Davesprite falls quiet for a second, frowning over on his side of the exchange.]

You don't have to be a dick about it, Jay.

[But fine, whatever. It's Bucky's way of saying he's stubborn as shit and done with the argument, isn't it? Davesprite hangs up.]