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This is the IC inbox for Bucky Barnes at Snowblind.

Network name: @bucky; formerly @j, @username, and @robertsmith

This is the place to contact Bucky over the Network. Contact by voice, text, or video is all perfectly acceptable, and there is no need to plot with me prior to posting in this inbox.

Any contact for @j following day 125, @username following day 190, or @robertsmith following day 224 will be met with the following message: USER NOT FOUND.

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[mrcreamsicles]

[It's a simple enough reply, at first, and he's fine enough to leave it there for the moment. He has a lot of thinking of his own to do beyond this. He has the advice and his own memories, and from there he just has to sort out what it is he actually wants and why. It's not a prospect to be completed in one evening.]

[But Bucky eventually speaks up again, and his attention turns. It's not a light thing to be told.]

im not real good at this
talking about this
theres only one person who can really get that out of me on the regular and even then i clam up like a jackass way too often
i mean what i want to say first off is im glad youre putting in this effort
i cant know everything they did to you or made you do and thats fine because im not going to ask
i just know it was bad enough that this has to be a huge amount of progress for you already
and that even if you cant be the way you were before this was done to you then i still want you to be able to be some kind of happy again
so good work keep it up i believe in you and all that other stuff
it just kind of at the same time feels like
its stupid that im even having this trouble
i havent got your history
im just some teenager who
whatever
its a whole different level
but i still get that same kind of feeling just in a different way
even though the main person who would be most against it is dead
so how dumb is that
and why do i have to worry about being how im supposed to be when im not even the most me version of me out there
that probably makes no sense
forget it
idk what im getting at
i guess
thanks for actually giving me the advice
and not telling me to just fuck off or whatever for asking

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[It's strange, that there's an increasing number of times that he's given advice and been thanked for it like it's been helpful. It's good, makes him feel even more secure in the lesson he learned since that false future.]

You're welcome.

You need me again, you can call any time. I'll understand.

[mrcreamsicles]

[Bucky neatly sidesteps all his textual flailing. It helps, too, putting an end to the question of whether he should have said more or just kept it all in in the first place. It's fine. He's alright.]

alright
ill keep it in mind
also uh
big topic swerve incoming
youre going to see karkats name on the obit tomorrow
he got taken by an anomaly

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What happened?

[He's not surprised that these questions came now, loss and grief tend to make people desperate to find some kind of answers.]

[mrcreamsicles]

i said an anomaly didnt i

[But he knows Bucky is probably asking for more detail.]

it looked like someone from our world
and i couldnt tell from a distance that it was an anomaly
yesterday the new arrival post went up right
for all we knew he had shown up for real
until we got close enough that we saw the stuff wrong
the face wasnt right
and his hood was full of teeth

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[It's understandable why they might have made that sort of mistake, but it's still never pleasant to see someone carried off by a facsimile of a friend or loved one.]

Sorry.

He'll probably be back, just keep a watch for him.

[mrcreamsicles]

im going to
i already asked the admin where his body is so im going to head there and wait
just didnt want to let it be a surprise is all

[Not that he thinks they're close or anything from whatever amount they may have spoken, but when he's the one responsible for it in the first place, it felt fairer to warn him.]

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[Not that he's going to tell Davesprite as much, but they spoke for all of a few sentences and he wouldn't have been too upset to see the other boy dead except for how it would affect Davesprite.]

Sounds like a good plan. I'm with John at the moment, but if you need me then let me know.

[mrcreamsicles]

[The name hits him like a punch.]

dont call him that
not when youre talking to me
john is the guy that just ate karkat
i cant see his name and think watson it just doesnt work that way

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I'm sorry, but I didn't know and other people won't know either, they're going to call him John because that's his name.

[As sympathetic as he is, that's one thing that he thinks Davesprite needs to learn to deal with.]

[mrcreamsicles]

damnit bucky
i know they wont
theyve called him that before
and usually its fine but this happened just earlier today
it wont kill you to just use his surname for now

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Fine. I'm with him at the moment, but if you need me then you can call.

[mrcreamsicles]

[Davesprite sighs. He's spent tonight in shifting moods, trying to keep a lid on his grief in a way that's done little but make him irritable and huffy at relatively mild provocation. Bucky's advice, good and appreciated though it is, isn't enough to have prevented that.]

sure
later

[He just doesn't like feeling powerless, is the thing. He hangs up here.]