PSL for Renart

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And it really never feels weird? To see your whole life laid out like that, to see the mistakes and what they got right.

[He knows she's fine with it, he just really doesn't understand it.]

...it scares me, knowing someone I never met out there could know all the secrets that I try to keep.

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It's easier knowing no one expects me to actually be real. Talking foxes aren't the norm back home.

[She sighs, though.]

There isn't much else I can do, so it's easiest to focus on the good rather than the bad. People enjoy my stories, they let them be creative. If that means they also know my secrets, then so be it.

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That's pretty mature.

[He doesn't mean that to sound surprised, even if it comes out that way.]

I don't think I could do that-- in fact, I know I couldn't. Did John ever tell you what happened the first time I learned that I was a movie character in his world?

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No. [But she looks curious now.] What happened?

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I tricked him into meeting me, attacked and severely wounded him, and then tied him to a chair and interrogated him about what he knew.

[He did not cope with it well.]

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Oh.

[Well, that sounds like overkill.]

But he forgave you. You wouldn't be friends if he didn't.

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You might not have noticed, but John is kind of an idiot.

[He forgives way too easily.]

He tried to tell people that an aquarium fell on him.

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And a good friend. He understands why you did it, he diesn't kike being a character from a book either.

[An aquarium? Really?]

Did anyone believe that?

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A couple of people, the buildings in Norfinbury weren't exactly stable, but not for long because I made an announcement about what really happened.

[He wasn't about to let John cover for him.]

The day after I tortured him, that's when he took my arm off for the first time.

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[Her eyes widen when he says he actually told people. That's the exact opposite of her - when something like this happens, it's better to hide it as much as possible to avoid a witch hunt.]

How did people react to that? They didn't make you remove your arm, right?

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No, it had to come off. Frostbite.

[He clarifies that first, the arm had needed to be removed for a while.]

People weren't happy, but there wasn't much they could do to me, there wasn't exactly a jail there. It didn't help that John and a couple of others kept jumping in to defend me. In the end they put me on a dangerous persons list, so any new arrival would be warned.

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[She frowns severely at all of that. God knows how painful removing a frostbitten metal arm must have been, but worse is that dangerous persons list. What would they have done if they had been in a better position to do more? What if Norfinbury were more like the Meadous?]

I'm sorry. [It feels so stupid to say that.] You shouldn't have had to go through any of it. You don't deserve it. You aren't a bad person.

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I did deserve that, if nothing else. I chose to hurt John, and I was in my right mind at the time, it wouldn't have been right to get away with it.

[Why do all of his friends want to protect him from the consequences that he deserves?]

I pretty much crippled him, in a place where being unable to walk was a death sentence, being put on some list was nothing.

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[He's right about all of that, logically, and she knows she's biased... but she still thinks it was wrong. And she's at least grateful they didn't do anything worse than a list.]

I suppose just being thankful they didn't start a full witch hunt should be enough.

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Pretty sure they only didn't because Natasha, Clint, and John threatened them not to.

[He knows a few people, especially ones like Davesprite, were ready to get out the pitchforks.]

...bunch of idiots, I told them to stay out of it and they didn't listen.

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It's a good thing they didn't.

[No matter what he says she doesn't think he deserved a witch hunt.]

It's good you had friends willing to stick up for you there. You weren't alone.

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[He'd argue more about this, but it seems somehow insensitive to row with her when he's supposed to be trying to comfort her after Monty's disappearance. So all he offers is a noncommittal grunt which could mean anything.]

...what about you? Tell me about the friends you had in the place you were in before.

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In Between?

[She sounds reluctant.]

You really want to hear about them?

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Sure.

[He frowns slightly in her direction, noting the reluctant tone.]

Unless you don't want to.

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Well....

There was another immortal there. We got off to a rocky start, but wound up being friends.

[Methos was an okay guy, it would be nice if he were here.]

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Seems like that's how friends are made in my experience.

[Literally all of his friendships have been rocky starts.]

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I suppose....

[A lot of her friendships started like that, too.]

I doubt most people start with one of them cutting the other's head off, but it's a fun story now.

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Oh. Yeah, maybe not quite to that level.

[Sometimes he forgets just how extreme her form of immortality is.]

But John and I became friends after that night in the aquarium, proper friends, so I know about making friends though bad decisions of violence.

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I'm glad the aquarium thing didn't come between you.

[Despite having all kinds of problems with John he isn't that bad of a guy.]

And that he's here with you.

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Me too. I wish Steve could've stayed longer.

[Maybe that's insensitive to say when she's dealing with her own loss at the moment.]

Feels like he just got here and he was gone again.